What’s up with us.
I can’t believe tomorrow is September. I remember back in May when I kept thinking it was still March.
AJ recently took the tbas; couldn’t tell you what it means, I thought he was taking up fishing when he said he was taking the “tee-bass.” More importantly though, he did exceptionally well on it, better than we both had hoped for. Now with that combined with another test and his flight hours he has a competitive chance for when he graduates and applies for a slot as a pilot. In other words, Test 1 + Test 2 + Flight Hours = Awesomeness.
He started studying math so he can improve part of his score and asked me to help out since I consider math better than christmas, or the candy store, or a new sweater, or yep, nerd alert. Of course Mr. Smarty pants is smarter than he thinks so half the time I just sit nearby and put rainbows on my eyes and take pictures of him.
He’s got a year left of school but it feels like his graduation is only a short ways away. This time has come so quickly and the end of the school year will be here before I realize. I used to sit and think about what the future would bring for us and now I worry what will happen when its actually here. Our life has started, it started the day we got married but in my mind we’ve been sitting around waiting for him to graduate. Once that happens, we might move out of state, move out of the country, or actually not do anything at all. The complexity and “unknown” of it all really has a way of preoccupying my mind.
Because of that, my thoughts on life have really been wandering recently, quite far from the path I might add. I realized that I’ve been so caught in the world and I remembered a saying the other day, “be in the world, not of the world” and I came to the conclusion that I don’t want to do things because someone else is. I don’t want to expect certain things in my life.because the things that are the most important are a whole lot different than the world’s standards. The simplicity of making that realization and actually believing it has really opened my eyes. It’s hard not to get caught up in the riff raff and I hope I can remember what really matters, keep my eyes focused on that, and live without any expectation.
AJ: “And we’re almost thirty. Double it we’re sixty. Double it again we’re 120.”
AJ: “Yeah, for your skirt?”
Me: “Yeah I keep forgetting it.”
AJ: “Do you have your ticket?”
Me: “It’s somewhere in the car.”
AJ: “Is this a game?”
I don’t think I have ever had so much fun at Causey. I’m always hesitant to go because the water is freezing and I’m like a cat when it comes to that sort of thing. David and Amanda had invited us to go and I didn’t want to wimp out at the last second so we loaded up the car and invited the three redheads to come with us.
When we got there I wasn’t quite sure if I really wanted to swim or not but then I saw the cliff and knew I had to jump in at least once. As I climbed up to one of the ledges there was a man sitting there too afraid to jump. As I approached he asked me if I was going to jump and I replied “Oh yes, I love this sort of thing.” I plunged into the water and immediately climbed out and back up to the top again only to jump off the cliff once more. The man at the top jumped in eventually and the next time I saw him he stuck his hand up to me and said “High five, if you hadn’t gone I probably never would have.” I smiled knowing I had inspired him to jump even if it was simply because he didn’t want to be outdone by a girl.
I was amazed at how many people were there; almost as though the secret of Causey was finally getting out. There were people in canoes, paddle boats, rafts, and even floating on noodles. We bought Gooch a little puppy life jacket so we could swim across with him and that was probably what I loved the most. Watching him kicking and paddling out of pure fear of the water. Poor guy hates getting wet but it was awesome watching him swim back and forth to different people and seeing his little arms and legs starting to kick and paddle before he even touched the water.
After we’d been there for an hour or so I heard someone yelling our names. I looked down into the water and saw three rafts floating towards us. I yelled back “who are you?” It was Mary! I couldn’t believe it. Mary, Drew, Adam, and Becca had all come. I asked if she was going to get in and she said “No, I’m just here to relax,” as she lounged in her raft wearing her floppy hat and sunglasses.
When it was time to leave, I couldn’t find my camera and started to panic. I had hid my camera in some shrubs when I decided to swim and didn’t want to make the trek all the way back to the car. I couldn’t believe I had done that and now might not possibly be able to find it. I retraced my steps three times and went down two wrong paths before I finally found it. Next time I’ll be sure and leave some sort of marker.
I already can’t wait until we can go again. I was so sore the next day from all the swimming and paddling with Gooch but it was well worth it.